Good morning, sweeeeeeeeeet neighbors!!!! Shweeeet friends! Happy Thankful Thursday to you and I do hope you have much to be thankful for.
I will spare you the million and one things I usually name that I’m thankful for but I’ll always be adding family as that is my number 1, and my sweet friends out there like you, which are part of my number 1. And God and Jesus that are not only part of my number 1, but part of everything I am and do. I’m far from perfect, sooooo far, but I try hard every day to make them glad at me. I use that phrase ‘glad at me’ as my daughter, Hallie, asked me that once when she was about 3 and I’ve never forgotten that sweet question from that precious baby, “Mama, are you glad at me?” Oof, I’m missing her like crazy right now. Wish I could squeeze her, but alas, she’s at school, so I have to wait till 3. ;)
Have you ever stepped waaaaay outside your comfort zone and tried something you could never see yourself doing? Have I told y’all about my video project? I have been a little hushed about details as I feel talking about it beforehand sort of jinxes myself. Perhaps that sounds odd. I just like to be taking action doing the thing and have some sort of flow going or even be finished with a certain amount of steps before I mention. But since I did get my first major step completed, I’ll talk a little about it.
I had a vision last year for this project. It just popped into my little imagination. It was so clear. Life gets in the way and all that and it got pushed to a back burner to simmer for a while. Well, it’s been simmering for a year and certain things came into play within the last 2 months that told me I need to get my rear in gear on this project.
I asked God, “If you want me to do this thing, please show me the way. I cannot work 46-56 hours a week and do the project, but I do need to pay my bills, so please don’t take away any clients.”
The very next week, my biggest client cut my hours, as she needed to stay closer to her budget. Nothing too threatening but just enough to allow me to still pay my bills (barely) and have time to go out and engage with people. A beloved friend donated an awesome video camera for the project – a very generous donation. Other great friends were praying for me and the project, the questions I’d ask, the interviews, the confidence, calmness, soothing of my anxiety, ’cause I was so sure I was either gonna faint or get sick. So many amazing people believe in me and this project and it made such a difference in my taking action. I have to say, I got close to chickening out, because of my fear and lack of confidence but I asked myself, “Do you just want to stay shut up in that house every day? I mean, writing is awesome and it’s one of your dreams and it’s fantastic but this is a great vision, too. What if something comes of all this? What if people actually like it? What if you can relate to these people on a deeper level and really connect with people? What if people watching and listening to their stories realize they’re not so alone? What if I can (only as a go between) actually shrink the planet through connections and stories? How cool would that be? You can always get back to writing after you have this project up and running smoothly.”
So after 1, 2, 3, 4 rejections, I finally got a yes, and while I was interviewing this sweet person, I received several lookers-on also express interest so I’ll be going back to get more interviews! What a wonderful interview that was yesterday! What a wonderful lady I talked with, so deep, so compassionate, so thoughtful. I feel like I have a bit more faith in humanity. I feel a bit more positive about people. I had so many great conversations with these several people yesterday and my jitters were put to rest. So crazy, right? I made some new friends, and this project is starting to take flight!
Now to spend the time I need editing. But at least I have done a bit and have my feet good and wet so I know better about what I’m doing. I cannot wait to get the videos loaded so I can share them with you guys!!! Won’t be long now!
OH, and I’m thankful Hallie had a wonderful Sweet 16 in New Orleans. I took her and Mama and one of Hallie’s best friends (which I also consider a daughter), Sierra, and we all had a fabulous time. Hadn’t been in years and it’s only 2.5 hours away! We walked and walked for miles, all day and night. I cannot believe my baby is 16. *sniff*
I love you guys! xoxo
What are you thankful for today? What great things have been going on in your life this week?
(Photos courtesy of ME – Haha! – http://www.instagram.com/carolblakesessums)