Well, technically, Camp didn’t wash out. I did. It’s not for a lack of trying, mind you. I’ve had much on my plate with work, with running after Hallie and helping her (post-surgery), running after the animals, mowing and working in the yard, cooking, cleaning, washing, going to and fro physical therapy and the list goes on.
I did manage to scribble roughly 5,000 words, not quite reaching the goal I’d set for myself of 10,000. BUT! I am still squeezing in time to write, even if it’s for a measly 15-30 minutes a day. Hey, something is better than nothing, right? Right.
I sort of messed myself up a bit to be honest. I started back on my work of non-fiction that I started in October of last year and it’s like I had to force myself and found it to be more of a chore than fun. I cannot write like that. It has to be fun. Don’t misunderstand. Sometimes you have to glue your butt to the chair or couch or bed or porch swing or wherever it is you want to write and actually put in the time to write. Something. Anything. Just to get yourself started.
Write the voices that are talking (screaming) in your head
But to sit there in angst with 100 other thoughts running through your head of what you need or want to be doing rather than having the want to sit there and write. Well… I cannot write like that. It has to be fun. After you sit there and force yourself to write, if the imagination and words are not flowing by the end of the first 30 minutes, it’s not worth it. So I pulled away and thought to myself, “Self, while I realize finishing this book is important, you have all these voices in your head screaming at you to work on their story. How can you focus on something completely opposite when you have your fantastical characters screaming at you to write their story? Writing is writing. As long as you are writing, you’re getting the job done. But you need to listen to those voices in your head. Listen to them. Write their story.”
Then, I had a dream, woke up at 0:dark:30 after the dream, couldn’t go back to sleep, got up out of bed and wrote. It was an epiphany. I have started books 1 and 2 in a series and this dream was the story before book 1. A new twist! Sort of like The Hobbit movie coming out after all the Lord of the Rings movies. It’s the back story before the story. So, I have to say, I was a bit psyched to get up oh so early to write out everything I could remember from the dream. And it’s funny. The more time I spent writing it, the more details sprang up and I started remembering more of the dream, the colors, the sounds in the background, the smells, the rooms and changing environments, the action, the drama, what the characters where saying and how they were saying them. Writing is such a wonderful trip!! Hearing, seeing, feeling and smelling the story in your mind and writing it out is like biting into a juicy sweet peach, breathing in that heavenly fresh summery fragrance, and having the nectar drip and run down your chin and arm while savoring every last delicious bite.
If you write at all, then be proud
If you did not reach your goal for Camp Nano, don’t beat yourself up about it. If it got you started writing and you continue every day to write, then be proud. The real goal here is to write, to create, to spill your soul or imagination or dreams onto paper or laptop or whatever the tool is of your choosing. But to write. That is the goal. So do that. And be pleased with yourself. Someone said once, ‘it’s not the destination, it’s the journey.’ And that is a very true statement. The journey is the fun part, the adventure and, sometimes, the distraction from real every day life. It’s my means of escape, though I don’t escape for long, as I love my life and the people in it. Still, a little mini-mental-vacation is always welcome. To imagine worlds and stories in your mind — those are some of the best vacation adventures.
So, maybe I didn’t wash out. I started. I wrote. I’m writing daily. And I will finish it eventually. And so will you.
And if you did reach your goal for Camp, I applaud you!! And if you didn’t reach your goal, and, still, you wrote, I applaud you, as well! Wooooo-hooooo!!! *clap*clap*clap*clap*wolf whistle* Whoop! Whoop!!