The Zombie Apocalypse is Here

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Picture Thursday:

Mama and I took Hallie to get her knee surgery. Bless her. Good drugs in the ole IV, nerve block — she was flying higher than fireworks on the Fourth of July. She was feeling no pain. She and I had a few nice chats before they took her back and we had some good laughs. I’m sure everyone back there was wondering what was so funny. The kid is freakin’ hilarious without drugs. So you can imagine her drug-induced humor. Crazy Eyes!! Then surgery. Then recovery. Ugh. Bad dreams and tripping, tears. You might can imagine. Time to go. She screams Chick-fil-A, same as last time. Yeah, same surgery on the other knee 7 months ago. Onward to buy a late lunch and make the usual stop at Seattle Drip for her strawberry smoothie and Mama’s and my dark chocolate and hazlenut frappe with an extra shot of espresso and whip. Thank ya, Lord, for heaven on earth. Stop and buy drugs (the legal kind). And home.

Fast forward to Friday:

Pain pill and ice every 4 hrs. Advil every 4 hours in between the pain pill and ice, so up every 2 hours around the clock. Drugs forcing her to sleep, which is a good thing, then awake in a drugged zombie-like state. I’m so out of it, I don’t know whether to feed the dishes or wash the pets. Tried to work but as soon as I start, you know the thing your eyes do when you’re a mixture of tired, sleepy and a bit out of your mind from lack of sleep? Yeah, the glazed over drugged-out look? Sort of zombie-like? That’s me. Crazy eyes!! They start out at half-mast, then I try to stretch them open wide as if that’ll help make me alert. I can’t focus on work. Tried to nap with her. Then, I think of all the stuff I need to do, so I can’t sleep either. So, here I am, walking like a zombie through the house (picture tank, shorts, unbrushed hair, unbrushed teeth, unwashed face with yesterday’s left over makeup and… Crazy Eyes!!), tending to her, and then coming back to pull blank stares at my computer screen. So, why is it so easy to just blah-blah-blah on the computer, talking about life in general, yet I can’t work? It’s easy stuff, too, mostly. I guess my head is simply not in the game.

Yes, the Zombie Apocalypse is here and it’s at my house. Be afraid. Be very afraid.

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The Zombie Apocalypse is Here and is at My House

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Picture yesterday:

Mama and I took Hallie to get her knee surgery.  Bless her.  Good drugs in the ole IV, nerve block — she was flying higher than fireworks on the Fourth of July.  She was feeling no pain.  She and I had a few nice chats before they took her back and we had some good laughs.  I’m sure everyone back there was wondering what was so funny.  The kid is freakin’ hilarious without drugs.  So you can imagine her drug-induced humor.  Crazy Eyes!!  Then surgery.  Then recovery.  Ugh.  Bad dreams and tripping, tears.  You might can imagine.  Time to go.  She screams Chick-fil-A, same as last time.  Yeah, same surgery on the other knee 7 months ago.  Onward to buy a late lunch and make the usual stop at Seattle Drip for her strawberry smoothie and Mama’s and my dark chocolate and hazlenut frappe with an extra shot of espresso and whip.  Thank ya, Lord, for heaven on earth.  Stop and buy drugs (the legal kind).  And home.

Fast forward to today:

Pain pill and ice every 4 hrs.  Advil every 4 hours in between the pain pill and ice, so up every 2 hours around the clock.  Drugs forcing her to sleep, which is a good thing, then awake in a drugged zombie-like state (her, not me).  I’m so out of it, I don’t know whether to feed the dishes or wash the pets.  Tried to work but as soon as I start, you know the thing your eyes do when you’re a mixture of tired, sleepy and a bit out of your mind from lack of sleep?  Yeah, the glazed over drugged look?  Sort of zombie-like?  That’s me.  Crazy eyes!!  They start out at half-mast, then I try to stretch them open wide as if that’ll help make me alert.  I can’t focus on work.  Tried to nap with her.  Then, I think of all the stuff I need to do, so I can’t sleep either.  So, here I am, walking like a zombie through the house (picture tank, shorts, unbrushed hair, unbrushed teeth, unwashed face with yesterday’s left over makeup and…  Crazy Eyes!!), tending to her, and then coming back to pull blank stares at my computer screen.  So, why is it so easy to just blah-blah-blah on the computer, talking about life in general, yet I can’t work?  It’s easy stuff, too, mostly.  I guess my head is simply not in the game.

Yes, the Zombie Apocalypse is here and it’s at my house.  Be afraid.  Be very afraid.

(Photo courtesy of goodreads.com)

She Came Through Fine

It’s mostly the waking up from anesthesia that worries me.  She came through just fine.  Surgery was a complete success plus she got the screw removed from the other knee.  That sucker was bigger than we realized!  She kept it as a souvenir to go along with her battle scars.  She doesn’t care about the scars, though.  I’m so glad.  I know myself well enough to know the scars would bother me.  Not her!  She’s tough stuff and grounded and well rounded enough to not let things as trivial as a few scars get her down.

No, what bothers her is not being mobile for a week and on crutches for 8 and Physical Therapy 3 times a week for about 12.  What bothers her is the pain once the nerve block and iv drugs wear off.  At least she has pain meds.  I can’t imagine that level of pain.  I can’t imagine that level of stress.  To have to start her first year of high school on crutches and have someone help her with her backpack and help prop her leg up in a chair in each class.  My heart hurts.  But that’s nothing compared to her pain.  The sadness she feels and the anger, resentment and blame she holds against her body since she feels as though her body has failed her in some way.

But she’s home now in my bed so I can better care for her every 3-4 hours around the clock, and so she can watch tv.  Both her legs are propped up on a rolled sleeping bag.  She’s asleep, catching up on much needed rest since she pretty much didn’t sleep a wink last night.  I think I’ll go to the bathroom in a few to have a good cry and she won’t have to be subjected.  Oh, you know us mamas.  We have to stay tough until it’s all over with.  Then we can go hide and cry and relieve a little bit of the tension.  We wish we could bear the pain and struggle for our children.  Wish it was just that easy.

At least, if she’s still interested, she can start soccer again next year.  Not too late to get a scholarship.  Both her knees will be fixed and the doc says there’ll be nothing she can’t do 6 months from now.  Thank You, God/Jesus!  You guys are awesome and You know how very special You are to us!  Huge thanks to my sweet, sweet Mama, who goes through everything with us.  We are three peas in a pod.  She helps us so much with her love, sweetness and emotional support.  I love you, Mama!  And Hallie loves you soooo much, too!  Thanks to the surgeon who is sooo brilliant (and everyone who assisted)!  Thanks to you all, our dear friends, for your prayers.  It means more than you know.

Love y’all,

Carol

*squishes and smooches*

Understandable Despair and Silver Linings

Exodus 6

The Lord told Moses that Pharoah would let them go because of His mighty hand and Pharoah will force them out of his country.  He further told Moses he remembered his covenant and will free the Israelites from being slaves to the Egyptians and will bring them to the land he swore to give to Abraham, Isaac and Jacob and he will give them the land as their possession.

Moses reported to the Israelites what God said but they didn’t listen because of their discouragement and cruel bondage.  The Lord told Moses to tell Pharoah, king of Egypt, to let the Israelites go out of his country but Moses said, “If the Israelites will not listen to me, why would Pharaoh?”

Exodus 6:13 thru 6:27 is the family record of Moses and Aaron.

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If you were an Israelite, forced into hard and cruel labor, beaten and made to work constantly not only building but gathering your own straw for bricks, forced to fill your same quota of bricks as before when you were actually supplied with straw, how would you feel about God?  Would you trust him?  What you believe he would deliver you from this torture and give you freedom and land?  I know I wouldn’t.  He could have come sooner, right?  He could have watched out for these people and not allow them to be tortured at all.

Why would he leave them alone for so long?  I don’t begin to understand nor will I ever understand why he allows people to be tortured.  I’ve heard he has a plan.  For each one of us, he has a plan.  Do you ever question his plan?  I do.  Sometimes I wonder if he actually has a plan for my life.  It’s during those times of suffering.

But then I adjust my focus and see all that I have.  I look at Mama, this beautiful, amazing woman who is capable of anything, the fact that she’s just next door and we grow closer every day.  I look at Hallie, the daughter I wished for since I was 2, the fact that she’s this amazing young person with all the qualities I prayed for during all those years of not having her and we grow closer every day, which is what love is supposed to be.

You spend time with people you love and get to know them on deeper levels and in different ways and you love them in spite of their flaws, failures and weaknesses.  You love them and they love you in spite of all your flaws, failures and weaknesses and your love strengthens and grows and you get closer every day.  And then, from that amazing love, I see all the other wonderful things in my life.

Even though we may struggle at times, we have so much more to be thankful for.

Perhaps it feels like a struggle, but really it’s a blessing in disguise.  This might and might not make sense.  A struggle being a blessing in disguise?!  I’ve actually had several of those.  Where something bad happens and at the time you feel it’s horrid and maybe even for a while after as you mourn that thing.

But then the smoke clears and you begin to see things with cleaner, fresher eyes and see all the blessings that came because of that bad thing.  You find the silver lining and sometimes there are many silver linings from that one bad thing.  I know some of you know what I mean.  So then maybe God does have a plan after all.  It’s sometimes through a bit of suffering and because of suffering we can eventually see and appreciate beauty.

Second Week of Nano

It’s into the second week of Camp Nanowrimo and what do I have to show for it?  Zilch.  But.  I have a plan.  It’s the “easy button” plan.  The “stupid easy” plan.  I have the beginning and parts of the middle of the book from previous Nov Nano and April Camp Nano so I’m trying to figure out my Nano schedule to be this:

July 14 thru 21 –Print what I have written thus far, read thru, pen & ink reorg/revise, comp reorg/revise — This will give me a better jumping off point

July 22 thru 31 — Write 1,000+ words per day

July 31 —  Submit my 10,000+ words by 11:59pm

Cutting it close, eh?  I like it like that.  But see, I have a plan.  If I can clear 2 hours per day to write, I can score 2,000 wpd so that would be awesome.  Yeah, I think maybe I can do that if I get up at 3am on those days.

3-5 write

5-9 work on Contract 1

9-1 work on Contract 2

We’ll see how this goes.  A monkey wrench is about to be thrown into the plan on July 17, so I’m not sure how things will hold up after this.  The following days and weeks will be complete insanity.  Pray for me?  Pray for my baby more?  She is scared to death.  One knee surgery last Dec 26.  The other knee surgery on Thursday.  Ugh.  I can’t even imagine…  :'(

I wish all of you Wrimos out there the best of luck with your writing goals!  We got this!

Exodus 1

 

Jacob had 70 descendants.  Joseph, his brothers and all that generation died but the Israelites multiplied greatly so the land was filled with them.  Then a new kid, who didn’t know about Joseph, came into power in Egypt.  He told his people there are too many Israelites and they must be dealt with shrewdly or they will become more numerous and if war is to break out, they will join the enemy and fight against us.  So they oppressed them with forced labor but the more they were oppressed, the more they multiplied and spread, so the Egyptians came to dread the Israelites and worked them ruthlessly.

The king of Egypt said to the Hebrew midwives, Shiphrah and Puah, “When you help the Hebrew women in childbirth, if it’s a boy, kill him but if it’s a girl, do not.”  But the midwives feared God and did not do what the king ordered; they let the boys live.  Then the king summoned the midwives and asked them, “Why have you done this? Why have you let the boys live?”  The midwives answered Pharaoh, “Hebrew women are not like Egyptian women; they are vigorous and give birth before the midwives arrive.”  So God was kind to the midwives and the people increased and became even more numerous.  And because the midwives feared God, he gave them families of their own.  Then Pharaoh gave this order to all his people: “Every boy that is born you must throw into the Nile, but let every girl live.”

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What kind of king is this dude?!  Thank God for those God-fearing Egyptian midwives, right?  Love those chicks!  What kind of person would order to kill innocent children?  I’m sure there is a special place in hell for people like this.  Nobody messes with kids, man!  I won’t say what I would have done to that king had he ordered me to commit such a heinous act.  Any thoughts on this chapter?  I know I’m going a bit slow and not doing 3 chapters a day as you are supposed to when you read the Bible in 365 days, but I only have so much time per day, plus I want to take my time going through each chapter and really understand and think about it, rather than rush through.  So, if you were ordered by a king to do such a thing as this, what would you have done?  Would you kill the king?  Would you flee to another land?  Any thoughts?

Have a groovilicious evening.  And if there are any prayer requests out there, please send them my way and I’ll be happy to add them to our prayer request list.  You can comment me with it or if you’d rather not say what the prayer request is, just comment “silent prayer request.”

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Prayer Requests

Please pray for my sweet Mama as she’s having more shots in her neck/back tomorrow (this is her third round) to help alleviate pain and suffering and improve mobility and range of motion and relieve stiffness.  She’s such a sweet and wonderful girl and to see her in so much pain breaks my heart.

And please pray for Hallie, my daughter, as she’s having surgery on her left knee July 17.  She had surgery on her right knee Dec 26.  She is fearful and stressed about it, understandably, and it’s totally ruining all the plans she had for soccer.  She’s also dreading PT 3 times per week for several weeks and starting her freshman year on crutches.

Love y’all!  ‘nite!  *smooch*

- Carol

Let’s Play 20 Questions

Okay, I’ve had several thoughts about this blog lately and wanted to get your opinion.  I don’t want to overwhelm my readers, so I wanted your input.

I have many interests and I wouldn’t mind blogging about them.  Which of the following would you be interested in reading?

1) Bible study/God/Jesus/Prayer/Miracles (I will be doing this one anyway.  I made a deal with God.);

2) Creative writing & Nanowrimo/Camp Nano (this would include challenges as well); By the way, Camp Nanoers, I’m interested in engaging in some word sprints.  Who’s game?;

3) Quotes;

4) Cooking/recipes/experimenting in the kitchen;

5) Working from home/companies to work for and who not to work for/every day life;

6) Being a divorced/single mom with a teenager;

7) Health/fitness/diet/losing weight/daily working out/super foods and what helps what and what foods hurt you/improving energy, eyesight, and well, health overall;

8) Depression, anxiety, anger issues, frustration, suicidal thoughts, grief (dealing with it & how to take action to improve);

9) Cleaning/organizing (tips, techniques, checklists) re home, schedules, life in general

10) Life in general as I sometimes talk about (with my teen, my mom next door, my crazy furballs, my insane work-from-home schedule, life in the country, Mississippi, road trips, etc.)

Okay, so it’s only 10 questions, which, in my opinion, trumps 20 (unless you just love answering long lists of questions).  So, give me a shout out.  Let me know which items you are interested in.  What are you interested in reading that’s not covered here?  I am great at biting off more than I can chew but I am determined to get back to daily blogging and creative living (writing, cooking, finishing my books) and I’m just curious what your thoughts are.  Comment me below.

And I’ll eventually incorporate photography again, but that will be added back to the blog perhaps in a couple months.

Lata babes!

- Carol

Day 3 of Reading the Bible in 365 Days

Genesis 8.  Been a long day, so 1 chapter is all we have time for.

At the end of the 150 days, the water had gone down and on the seventeenth day of the seventh month, the ark came to rest on the mountains of Ararat.  The waters continued to recede till the 10th month, then the tops of the mountains became visible.  Noah sent out a raven to fly back and forth till the water had dried from the earth.  Then he sent out a dove but it came back.  He sent it 7 days later and it came back that evening with an olive leaf in its beak.  7 days after that, he sent the dove again and it never returned, which told him the land was dry.

Eventually, God invited them to come out with all of the animals.  Noah built an altar to the Lord, took some clean animals and clean birds and sacrificed burnt offerings on it.   The LORD smelled the pleasing aroma and said in his heart: “Never again will I curse the ground because of man, even though every inclination of his heart is evil from childhood. And never again will I destroy all living creatures, as I have done. “As long as the earth endures, seedtime and harvest, cold and heat, summer and winter, day and night will never cease.”

Hallie says, “I wonder if there were unicorns on the ark.”  I’m thinking it could have been a possibility.  If Noah took some animals from the ark and sacrificed them, perhaps that’s the day unicorns became extinct?  It’s also a possibility that after all those long months on the ark, the animals could have procreated, making more of just 1 male and 1 female of each animal.  But was there room for more creatures to be born with all those that were already there?

Hallie and I think God would have instructed all the animals to wait until they were back on the earth before increasing in number.

What do you think?

Day 2 of Reading the Bible in 365 Days

Genesis Chapters 4, 5, 6 and 7.  Adam and Eve had Cain, then Abel.  Cain killed Abel and God cursed Cain and anyone who tried to kill Cain would suffer vengeance seven times over.  Cain moved to the land of Nod.  Cain and his wife had a child, naming him Enoch.  Cain built a city and named it after Enoch.  Several other people were born, wives entered the picture, to some men, more than one wife.  I won’t go through all the names of who begat who.  This is just the short and sweet version.

Adam and Eve had a third son, Seth.  Eve said that this third son was given to her in place of Abel, the son that Cain killed, but how is a child replaceable?  Adam also had many other sons and daughters after that.

Adam and many of the generations that followed lived hundreds of years, with Methuselah living the longest, at 969 years.  Noah, at the age of 500, became father to Shem, Ham and Japheth.

I’m confused by the passage that reads, “…the sons of God saw that the daughters of humans were beautiful, and they married any of them they chose. ”  What are the sons of God?  Are they not man?  Human man?  And what about the daughters of humans?  Are they not the daughters of God?  This is perplexing as the majority of the Bible is completely confusing.  The Nephilim were on the earth in those days and also afterward when the sons of God went to the daughters of humans and had children by them. They were the heroes of old, men of renown.

What are the Nephilim?  Wikipedia says The Nephilim /ˈnɛfɨˌlɪm/ were the offspring of the “sons of God” and the “daughters of men” according to Genesis 6:4; and giants who inhabited Canaan according to Numbers 13:33. A similar biblical Hebrew word with different vowel-sounds is used in Ezekiel 32:27 to refer to dead Philistine warriors.

As for giants, bones have been found throughout the world showing proof that giants did once exist on the earth.  Seek out the pictures for yourself.  I have seen them.  Let me know if you need the links.

So, God decided instead of humans living hundreds of years, he shortened our sentence to 120 years.

With the earth being corrupt and full of violence, God planned to destroy the earth and every living thing except Noah and his family, his sons and daughters-in-law and 2 of every living creature (1 male and 1 female) and every kind of food.  Noah built the ark that God instructed, the creatures came, they all loaded up, God closed the door, the rains came for 40 days and 40 nights, destroying every living thing except those on the ark.  The waters flooded the earth for 150 days.

Hallie says, “I want to live 900 years.”  I don’t.  I would be happy with 100 or 120 years but by then, I’ll be ready to go.  It would be cool to witness your grandchildren, great grandchildren, great great grandchildren and to see how technology progresses, although with all the craziness, violence and poverty, I’m not sure that I want to be around for even 100 years.

Reading The Bible – Day 1 of 365

Our Bible study which is actually reading the Bible in 365 days begins with Genesis Chapters 1, 2 & 3.  This covers God creating light, separating light from darkness, creating the heavens, the earth, vegetation, trees, plants, all living creatures in the sky, water and land, creating man and woman.

A serpent/snake was hanging out in the Garden of Eden, which back then, had legs.  The serpent tempted Eve to eat from the one tree (of Knowledge of Good and Evil) that God commanded they not eat from.  God gave them everything else.  So Eve ate from the tree, tempted Adam to do the same, then Adam passes the buck when God questions him.  Adam blames Eve and so then, Eve passes the buck and blames the serpent.

God curses man and woman for all eternity and curses the snake to crawl on its belly and eat dust for eternity.

That’s the short of it.  I want to say that the serpent was Satan or the devil but I can find no reference that says that.  He was simply a serpent tempting Eve, possibly to sway her away from Adam, possibly to purposely defy God himself, but I’m not sure he was the devil, as God cursed all snakes for eternity and did not speak of cursing Satan specifically.

Hallie’s comments on today’s reading:

“So people are really stupid to defy God in his face, especially when he’s standing right there.”

And that’s it for today.  Looking forward to tomorrow’s reading and just wanted to say we are reading the Bible chronologically, so it will be in order of how everything occurred, not just from the beginning of the Book to the End, which I believe is the best way to read it – as it happened.