Don’t Think. Just Do.

First off, allow me to apologize for not posting regularly.  As you probably know, I’ve been overloaded with work contracts so not much time for sleep lately, much less blogging.  I’ve been working with my camera and memory cards to see how long I can record footage for my upcoming project.  I’m working on the name.

I started off with Meaning of Life and then I did a search and it was already taken.  It’s not like an email address where it’ll tell you, “Sorry, already taken.  Choose another one.”  Nope, you can have 10 YouTube titles/names that are all Meaning Of Life as long as your username is different, which makes no sense to me.  So, then I did a search for Meaning of Lifers (since it’s about the peeps anyway) and that was available so I changed it.  I had to make sure I could get the lonely title, so that was step 1.  I can actually change it once or twice more within 90 days if I choose.  I’m thinking of Meaning Of Life Project (molp) or Meaning of Life Initiative (moli) or just keeping it Meaning of Lifers.  You can’t find it though until I upload my first video unless I list the link.  It doesn’t show up in search until it receives a ranking, obviously.

Now, I’ve filmed my first practice interview and I’ll be playing with my editing software and then maybe, just maybe, depending how long it takes me to initially figure out how to edit the “movie,” I’ll be ready to go out and talk to real people Monday or Tuesday!  Ack!!!  Still got to do a couple of things this weekend, and I pray I get time, as I still have a ****load of work for pay I have to do.  I need to check out release clauses I need to put in a paper for them to sign (stuff like “I give you permission to use and publish this footage,” “I expect no compensation for this footage,” blah, blah, blah, stuff like that.), organize my few questions I have for them, figure out how much footage I need from them (since I’m gonna edit a lot of space out to shrink it down to about a 5 minute space, roughly), so just a few small things to do first.

It’s getting close!!!!  I’m soooo nervous!  It’s a nervous, anxious, excited, happy energy.  Weird, right?  Something new.  Approaching strangers.  Actually talking to people and not hiding behind written words but spoken ones.  I think I may hurl.  At least I get to hide a smidgen behind the camera and will be editing my voice out of the “movie,” so that’s comforting.

So Monday or Tuesday (with a little help from my Friends — talking to You, God, and You, Jesus, and all you helpful angels and sweet spirits), I could be uploading my first YouTube video ever, or first video of any kind (well, online anyway).  Oh my!  I have butterflies in my tum just talking about it.  If you are praying people, and I know most of you are, please offer up a prayer on my behalf that I get time to do all this stuff and do well and get to interview, edit and upload by Monday or Tuesday?  Pleeeeaaasssse?  I still cannot believe I’m doing this.

Just a few months ago, I had the vision and I thought it was just a passing dream, something that would be fun to do (it was actually driving all over the U.S. talking to people) and I even thought it would be a great Kickstarter project (kickstarter.com) but then I thought, ‘Oh, then I’d have to film myself, talking to the camera (the people) and telling them why I needed money for this project and I’m really not comfortable being in front of any camera, much less asking people for money,’ so I brushed the dream aside.

I couldn’t stop thinking about it and what a great idea I thought it would be to talk to all these interesting people, get outside my comfort zone and just do it.  Besides, it’s not about me.  It’s about them and their stories, their views, their meaning for life.

I have a really, really, really bad habit of thinking too much.  Way, way too much.  I think good ideas away.  I let all the hard stuff and negative stuff override the fun, happy, excited energy.  I think of all the ways it would be impossible or too hard to do something.

I have a new motto.  “Don’t think.  Just do.”  What an invigorating way to live!!!!  Who am I?  I don’t think I even know myself anymore.  Oh well.  I just won’t think.  I’ll do.  ;)

Questions for YOU

I think I’ve spoken about a vlog idea I had in a previous post or two.  Perhaps not.  But I know I’ve talked about getting outside my comfort zone and I’ve taken a bit of action on this.  I’m about to take some more.  Yes, I’m going to start a vlog.  Or attempt to anyway, with the participation of strangers.

So, I need a few things first…

If you know anything about vlogging, about editing videos, about how to approach strangers and interview them, please send me in that direction.

And just to get me set on which particular questions to ask, what would YOU feel comfortable answering and sharing with the world?

1.)  What is the meaning of life, for you?

2.)  (especially for youth but for everyone) What do you hope to do/accomplish in your life?  (i.e. go to college, get married, have a family, be a doctor, be a writer, climb a mountain, live in Paris, be a Nobel Prize winner, or anything that comes to mind.)

3.)  What does love mean, to you?  (i.e. for a significant other, for how you wish to be loved, friendship, family or just in general; again, anything that comes to mind)

What other questions do you feel would be thought provoking that you wouldn’t actually mind sharing with the world?

My thoughts on this are to ask questions and not so much give them direction with their answers but for them to speak their truth from their own mind and thoughts, without judgment.

Do you have anything about your personal story that you wouldn’t mind sharing?

If I get enough people to participate, I will learn how to establish a YouTube channel as well as post on my blog, either here, or begin a new one.

I have several purposes for wanting to produce this vlog.  First off, it came to me in a vision.  I daydream a lot and this came to me while driving, if I remember right.  To go up and speak to just anybody and ask them questions would definitely be taking a great leap outside my comfort zone as I’m halfway terrified of people, because I’ve faced off with several crazies in my life, and I halfway love people, because certain ones restore my faith in humanity on a daily basis (just yesterday, the lady in front of us paid for our breakfast, so we passed it on).  People surprise me.  Everyone has a story.  I feel if we all share our stories with the world, it makes the planet feel a bit smaller.  When we hear the stories of others, it puts our own lives in perspective, makes us realize how blessed we are, makes us feel not so alone, makes us sympathetic to others’ plights and increases our capacity to love and reach out to those who need us, whether it’s a smile, a handshake, or a conversation.  No matter how you slice it, we all need people.  We all need each other.  And we can argue this point till we’re blue in the face but I think, deep down, you know it’s true.

I also want this to be a G-rated vlog, so that it can easily be viewed by young and old, all races and religions (or lack thereof).  So if, in fact, I receive profanity on the video, it would be edited/bleeped out (with their knowledge and permission).

Any thoughts?  Advice?

Changed My Mind on Survey

I am woman. That means I am apt to change my mind at a moment’s notice. It’s my prerogative. I am woman.

I have decided not to partake in the 5,000 Question Survey any longer. I have become bored with it. Many of the questions are just, how shall I say, more for children. I initially started the thing, because I thought I’d share my thoughts with you as I delved deeper into knowing myself, but these questions have not really helped me to discover anything about myself. Sure, some of them brought back some fond memories and some not so fond but nothing that has brought any sense of enlightenment. So for those reasons, I am ending it and changing that item on My 101 Things in 1001 Days.

I may come up with my own questions to aid in my self discovery, identity and enlightenment. I may change My 101 Things in 1001 Days list to become more immediate, like 10 Things I Must Do in 30 Days in order to GET THINGS DONE.

What do you think? What questions do you feel are good questions toward self discovery/identity/enlightenment? Things that really make you contemplate life, your life, your life in comparison to others (not, so much, to compare ourselves to others but to make you aware how thankful you should be for what you have and what you don’t have). What questions would you ask yourself if you were out to better your life and the lives of others? What 10 things would you want to accomplish in 365 days? Or 180 days? Or better still, 30?

133-145 = What is the Meaning of Life?

Day 11 of 365 days of the 5,000 Question Survey – the next 13 questions (if you’d like to join, please see the link in my post from Sept 18th or just the link:

133. Would you rather be a world political leader or a rock star? Neither but if I had to choose, I’d say rock star. I would not wish to be responsible for decision making for the world and I hate politics – mostly, the crooked politicians.

134. Have you ever given someone a love letter that you wrote? Yes, of course.

135. Have you ever sent someone a surprise though the mail? Yes, many times.

136. Are you looking forward to any concerts right now? Not really. Not many of the great concerts come to Mississippi.

137. Of all animated movies, which is the best one you’ve ever seen? Hmm… I suppose I’d have to say Spirit: Stallion of the Cimarron, although there are several I love.

138. What are the best bands or songs to listen to while driving? Anything by Bryan Adams, Switchfoot or the Eagles, many by Bon Jovi, some by Taylor Swift, some by Lorde, and many, many others. Not big into country music but Miranda Lambert is very talented, as is Tim McGraw and Lady Antebellum.

139. What do you think is the most amazing thing that anyone has ever accomplished? Jesus, going through all he went through — all that pain and suffering, just to save us low lifes.

140. What could a member of the opposite sex do to impress you? Actually listen and remember what I’ve said. I’ve known one man to ever do this. He was my best friend. A guy that could actually be himself, rather than put on a front, is impressive to me. A guy that can be a true gentleman as well as be honest and make me laugh and be my best friend — this impresses me. Hard to find. I think what I’ve come to love best about a guy is his ability to make me laugh. Laughter truly is the best medicine.

141. About how many emails do you get a day? I do not have the time to count them all. Too many.

How many of those emails are junk mail? Many are junk.  Many are subscriptions.  Many are members from groups I belong to.  I’ve unsubscribed and blocked most of the junk mail.

How many of them are forwards? I do not get many forwards these days as most people who know me know I will not forward unless it’s extremely funny, adorable or beneficial for someone else to read.

142. What’s your favorite thing to do online besides write in your diary and hang out at this site?  I do not write an online diary nor hang out at any one site more than another.  I supposed my favorite online thing to do is read, research and write.

143. Do you believe Kurt Cobain (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Kurt_Cobain ) killed himself or was it a conspiracy?  He killed himself.  No conspiracy.

144. Have you ever thought about hitchhiking across the country?  Hitchhiking, never.  Road trips across the country, yes.  I think it would be cool to photograph and write about each place, taste the popular foods from each area, tour the special sites and talk to the locals as well as video them and display it all on a vlog/blog.  This is the only vlog I think I would ever do.  Not interested on being on cam, myself, but I’d like to get others on cam.  One question I think I’d tape others answering would be, “For you, what is the meaning of life?”  It could be as short or as long an answer as they’d like to offer.

145. Who would you bring with you on this kind of a road trip?  My daughter and my mother.

 

And just wondering…  For you, what is the meaning of life?

120-132 of the 5,000 Question Survey

Day 10 of 365 days of the 5,000 Question Survey – the next 13 questions (if you’d like to join, please see the link in my post from Sept 18th or just the link:

120. Is there anyone you trust completely?  Completely?  I’d like to say yes.  I have huge issues with trust.  I try to trust.  It’s a work in progress.  There are some I trust maybe 80-90%?  I think it’s just a safety mechanism in me that prevents me to trust completely.  There are four I love completely.  I believe you can love completely.  Love and trust are two very different things.

121. Have you ever lost someone without having the chance to say goodbye?  Yes.  My dad.  I have since spoken to his spirit, though, and said everything previously left unsaid.

122. How do you feel about women in politics?  Hmm.  Tough one.  I believe in girl power.  However.  I’ve not seen any women in politics worthy of holding office.  But then again, it’s been decades since I’ve seen a man in politics worthy of holding office.

123. Would you rather have an indoor Jacuzzi or an outdoor pool?  Tough one.  I suppose the outdoor pool.  I’m sure it would be fun to have pool party cook outs.

124. What things are you interested in that you study or read about on your own?  (1) Creative writing – everything writing.  (2) Expanding the brain’s capacity.  We only access 10-13% of our brain.  I believe others with special gifts access a small percentage more.  If we could harness the power our brains hold dormant, there would be no limit to the things we could do.  This could be a good thing or a potentially bad thing.  (3) The supernatural power of prayer.  (4) Creative Visual Imagery.  (5) Many more.

125. Would you consider yourself to be intelligent?  Somewhat.  I can tie my shoes without assistance.  I can operate a smart phone.  Does that make me smart or just the phone?

126. Would you consider yourself to be wise?  At times, yes.  At times, no.

127. Have you ever given or received a lap dance?  Haha.  Not gonna answer this one. I was married once…

128. Have you ever spoken to a homeless person?  Yes, a few.

129. Would you ever creep into the subway tunnels to go exploring?  I do love to explore but don’t believe I’d go into the subway tunnels to explore, so no.

130. If you could add 70 years to your life but only by making some random person die 70 years sooner would you?  Of course not. Besides, I don’t want to live 70 years longer. I think dying at 100 would be a great amount of time to live, but only as long as I can independently take care of myself, my house, my yard and still be agile enough to drive.

131. Can you finish any of the following lyrics?

A: Nothing to kill or die for…

Nothing to live or cry for  (And I know those are the wrong lyrics but it’s the first thing that came to my mind)

B: Late comings with the late comin’ stretcher…

He died too soon before he could fetch her  (Same as above)

C: I could make a film and make you my star…

Steamy scenes of lust — might be Rated R  (Same as above)

132. Were you ever with someone while they died?  There’s much of my childhood I don’t remember (I may have blocked out) but I don’t believe so, no.

What’s Worse: Too Much or Not Enough?

No Excess was yesterday’s prompt from The Daily Post.

The idea?  “Perhaps too much of everything is as bad as too little.” – Edna Ferber

Do you agree with this statement on excess?

__________

I believe if we have been blessed with too much, it is our responsibility, our duty, to share our excess with others who have less.  Partly, the reason we were created was to share with and help others.  Each person on this earth has the ability to teach others, to learn from others, to share with others, and to love others.

Even the poor widow who only had 2 coins to offer tithed all she had to live on (Luke 20:45-21:4).  We can each learn from her generosity and selflessness.  I certainly know I can.

I believe if you don’t share your excess, it is worse having too much than not enough, as greed and selfishness is a great disease of the soul.  So, for those unsharing people, having too much is worse than having too little.  I would love to have excess, as I would give away so much more than I kept for myself.  What a wonderful thing it would be to give so much more to those who truly need it.  Though, I would settle for having just enough.  Just enough money to pay the bills and give a small amount to help others.  Just enough food to get through the week.  Just enough clothes and shoes to make it through the year.

If I had too much of anything, I’d want it to be land.  Nothing beats land and grass and trees and hills to run on, ride horses on, walk on and breathe, enjoying nature.  No big fancy shmancy house needed.  More than one bathroom would be good, though.

107-119 of the 5,000 Question Survey

Day 9 of 365 days of the 5,000 Question Survey – the next 13 questions (if you’d like to join, please see the link in my post from Sept 18th or just the link:

107.  Have you ever killed an animal?  Never intentionally.  A cardinal flew into my car once but I never saw it afterwards.  It’s as if it disappeared.  I cried for 2 weeks (every time I’d think about it).

108.  Have you ever lost someone close to you?  Yes.  My dad went to heaven on Valentine’s Day 2002.

109.  What do you think of cloning?  I think it goes against God and against nature.

110.  Do you read or watch TV more often?  I read more often than watch tv.  My daughter does, too.  We don’t watch just a whole lot of tv.  Most tv watching is on the weekends if we are home.

111.  With all this talk of terrorism going around are you willing to sacrifice rights and freedoms for increased safety?  Yes but to a limit.  Some of these new laws/policies are friggin’ ridiculous.

112.  What is the punishment you would come up with for Osama Bin Laden if you caught him alive?  My punishment sounds too angry and sinful, so I’d rather not say.

113.  Have you ever named an individual part of your body?  Om.  No.

114.  Have you ever been on the radio or on TV?  On tv, yes.  Blegh.

115.  Have you ever won a lottery, or sweepstakes?  No.

116.  Have you ever won a contest or competition?  Yes, I won airline tickets to anywhere in the continental U.S.  How cool is that?!  I took Hallie and Mama to Colorado to stay with a friend and visit her and her family, and go sight seeing and shopping.

117.  Do you like to watch The Joy of Painting show with Bob Ross (check out this link if you don’t know who he is. Also please note me if you notice the link is broken) http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Bob_Ross (painter)?  I have watched it before.  He was amazing.

118.  Do you know what your grandparents and your great grand parents did for a living?  I know what my grandparents did but not what my great grandparents did.

119.  Is there anything really interesting in your family history?  Lots!  One thing I recently learned through studying our lineage (ancestry.com is amazing!) is that we have French ancestry (in 1670), which I didn’t know before.  We actually have French royalty in our history.  Very cool.

Have y’all studied your lineage?